Well, today is the day....the day we have been waiting for, #8 joins us! I am feeling so great, so ready, but so not at all at the same time.
Having done this 7 times already, I have never had any fear, everything has been placed in God's hands from the moment that this little one entered my body. The problem is, I am 40 and that tells me that this is it, this is the last time I will feel someone kicking around, the last time that I will press and he/she will press back, the last fluttering of tiny hiccups. With my other children, I definitely enjoyed watching those little milestones as I trudged along my months of pregnancy, but at the same time, I always wished for that delivery day so I could finally meet my bundle of joy. This time around, it has been very different. I focused more...rushed less. I smiled when I felt those little stray movements early on, pressed my hand to my belly when they began getting stronger, lay down more just to watch.....this one put on quite a show as the curtains are quickly coming down on this production.
I love what the last 18 years have brought to my life...boys and girls, in no particular order. Soon to be 8 different personalities, looks, smarts....they are all so unique, yet all so the same. They are ours. Those that we can enjoy, make us laugh, make us cry, raise and send off to do good in this world. I have no doubts that each and every one of them will. My babies have brought more joy to me than anything I have ever experienced or done in my entire life! There are many things in my life that I can be proud of....getting a job at the FBI right out of high school, going to college for 4 years and getting my Interior Design degree, owning/operating my own consignment shop...honestly, the list is a big one, but nothing in this world gives me even close to the amount of pride that I have from having children.
They will always be my life, my loves, my joy, my world! Cameron, Genin, Kaplyn, Reiner, Brandis, Matlyn, Wynslet and Baby Boy!
